A little raindrop……………..

Busy street. Cars honking. Trees growing dry. Buildings stands tall. A dry scorching wind blows on my face. I fall on the ground. Life seem to be at end. Skin turning black. Veins all apart out. Why my lord why me??? Even a tear seems to be difficult to drop out. Miseries about to end. No more need of friends or enemies. Where are you my love where? When I need you? Down on my knees I beg you all forgiveness for what I have done unto you. I look up above onto the clear blue skies for a ray of hope. Another blow of wind pushes me down to collapse on the ground. Nothing more to ask for. People pass by me like strangers.

Time has been my tormentor turning me around like a piece of twig bending me all the way but not breaking me till now. My day has come it seems finally to be broken down. I try to remember all that has happened in my life till now. I was always amused looking how time passed by as a flash back when the hero is about to die; now it seems to be my time. Ahhhh! A tear ready to drop on the ground. I see her in the tear’s reflection on the ground. Is it true? Is it just my thought? Maybe I am wrong even in this final moment. The world seems to end. I close my eyes because; I can’t bear to see anything anymore. A roll of thunder I hear up far away. The lords playing his games with me. Hahahaha!! My final game on earth and here I am; cant even getup from the ground to face it.

The sweet fragrance of her perfume passes into my breath. Lost into a translation, unsure where I may end with this. I can’t even see her, yet I can feel her; is this we call as love. It’s been just a couple year since I have known her. We played. We shared. We cried. We were supposed to be together weren’t we? I see an angel coming right to me. I still remember the 1^st time I saw her, having food with her friends in the canteen. And in one of the corner is me fooling around with my crazy boys. All that time the clock moved fast as a tornado revolving away. A glimpse of her and I am smitten. Who is she? How did I dint see her all through my two years in college? Was she a new comer? So many questions one after the other rush like a first drug shot into my veins. Oh! The ball hits me and I am on the ground. But still my eyes preying on her. Who is she is the question still standing tall. Has the time stopped moving? Yes it truly has. All I see is silly kids laughing at me and her staring at me. Her eye lashes just blink and I am back to my senses again aren’t it a bit magical to say. Scratching my head I get up from the ground still looking at her. Hey weirdo quit it says my conscience. Giving a stupid smile and blushing away I turn to my friends and run to get hold of the one who threw the ball onto me.

Bells ring, it’s the final ring I am going to hear from my college. Final year is done but what’s the use all that I have still achieved are just a few glances from her and a first class in my final year. Could have spoken to her couldn’t I? Shit man! I am total waste one year and not even a word what’s the use of saying I am a guy and beating out the guys who abuse me, if I cant just once open my stupid mouth in front of her. Its now or never I see her passing by. “HI! My name is Ebin. Ebin Joseph.” Did she not hear me or did she ignore me. Great what more to ask the 1^st time I speak up and here I am as if on a block zero. Why me? Why did I even have to try talking? Should have left her the way she is. Just thinking that she liked me to. Even though I knew I was totally untrue. Oh did she turn back and looked at me. Yes she did. A blow of cold wind hits my face and nothing could have felt me any better.

Rains pouring and me roaming jobless as always some may say. But I am loving my life the way it is someway had forgotten her hadn’t I? A raindrop hit my face. And as it makes its exit from my face I see her again in front of my college gate. Is he following me? No I am not dear I was just riding by enjoying the rain and I saw you. Still no guts to say, I was thinking all that. “Hey what happened? It’s raining heavily? I will drop you home if you don’t mind.” She’s staring at me. Please a yes. Just one single yes. I am standing in front of her house bidding her bye. My first meet with her. I close my eyes and open. I see the cream ceiling of my room isn’t it great. I smile and blush just her thoughts seem to carry me forward.

Time and seasons pass by forward strong, so does every meet between us gets more regular and common. Like the new leaves growing on the trees and its roots getting stronger, every season somewhere I see our relation gets stronger. It’s a coldest night of the year and I am out on the streets with my friends acting as a jester. Waiting for the clock to hit 12 and wish her happy new year is all that I want. Just counting down the time and thinking about every occasion we have meet seems still a fantasy. The skies lit up with the powerful firecrackers. People shouting Happy New Year. I rush in front of her home and she her standing out. Maybe waiting for me with a smile on her pretty face. I catch her hand and pull her out on to the street give her a hug and speak into her ears “Happy New Year Dear. Love you dear and would you be my Love forever”. Masking under the loud sounds of the bursts happening around I hear a faint but clear “Yes”.

Now all that seems to be some kind of trouble in my soul. Shouldn’t have done it. If only I refrained from seeing her every time she asked me to. If only I had not seen her on that night of New Year. Every pin point precise moment in my life that I spent with her seems to ridicule me. Money and love that I gave her seems to have been washed drown the drain now. Was that a thunder that I heard again? It seems close now than it was before. A wind blows onto me. It seems so familiar. I look up with pain in my eyed hard to open but yet somehow. A drop seems to be falling on me as it hits the walls of the building beside. It wasn’t meant for me maybe. The trees above me would certainly block the drops if any tried to get to me. My life at its pathetic end and I can’t even feel her or the trickle of drop on my face how more ironic can my life turn to be. For the last time I open my eyes and see it. The drop falling from leaves to leaves and finally the golden pearl touches my face. The electrifying feeling that passes on me brings her face again in front of me. I sense a touch not of the drop but of love. Yes its her and I hear her faint whisper “I Love You”.

Just like the little raindrop brought peace to the thirsty mother earth. Just a final glimpse of her and the golden words from her mouth brought total peace to my soul.

LOVE to Read it

Love is an emotion of a strong affection and personal attachment. Love is also a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another".

That’s what how Wikipedia defines love to be in its own sense. Maybe the words used above to define love were a theological or more to say a theoretical formatting of love. I think most of you will readily approve with what Wikipedia has to convey because it’s precise and straight forward. Yes I do also affirm to whatever is written above, love is a feeling a strong feeling that holds two things one living- A total compulsion and another may or may not be living.

Love is universal and omnipresent. It’s only dependent on the eye of the viewer how he perceives it to be. Love has been in the world since life has started on the planet. There are various different phases of love that we see from our day to day life or time to time. LOVE is a humanely feeling but I care about two things the most in life. It’s necessary to understand the term in order to understand who is the best person for us to believe in or lay our trust in.

Lets start with the time we were born probably a cold winter night in a room full of strangers to us then not knowing where we are or who we are. The only place we could find refuge, peace and comfort was within our mother’s arms. A mother will never say that she has only an "affinity" for the child she carries in her during pregnancy. She is attached psychologically, physically and emotionally to the child. This is arguably the very first experience any of us has of love, and the notion of "attachment" here is absolutely relevant it is arguably where it derives ultimately. It is certainly not a “self-centered” or "ego-feeding" phenomenon. Many mothers would sacrifice their lives to save their child without hesitating to think beforehand. Now I would certainly believe all of you would accept this very fact that this love can’t be ever distrusted or avoided even if we want to.

After your mother then probably the second most loving person you find on earth is your father. Some of you may hate him for being strict and harsh at times, but then you can’t avoid the very fact that somewhere deep inside burns the desire in you that you still love him and you can’t ignore or avoid him at the times when he may need for your help. He gives you money for your needs and also helps you through all the difficult times that you face in life. In my personal experience I would say, I love my dad more than my mom because he always has been like a friend and a tormentor when situation asked for. He has been strict enough not to allow certain things, that he thought are not necessary but also have understood the situation and prior done things even without me asking. He has been my ‘Santa Claus’ when I was young and my ‘Hitler’ when I turned teen. That’s how a fathers love always has been throughout history – strong, bold, harsh and yet caring inside.

“Parents are our overall friend from our start till our end never changing status or role”

Pollution – A Growing Devil Indeed

From the time we have started of our schooling I think we all have learned about different types of pollution such as land, water and air. How many of you have thought about rectifying it and working over it in order to avoid it. I think very few of you would raise their hand in acceptance. This is because we think that even if we do something it wouldn’t make a big difference. Just because there are thousands others who are least considerate about what we do, I say that shouldn’t be our reason to stop.

But there is a different type of pollution which many of you may have blind eyed to. Just because of the reason we have started to enjoy it, doesn’t mean it is right. You might be thinking what am I trying to tell you here. And the answer to your question is “CORRUPTION”. However you contradict; no I haven’t ever bribed or anything, you know somewhere you have certainly bribed in; to get what you desired for. As we progress in life I would say the devil in us just keeps on growing to levels beyond.

Let’s take the life cycle in consideration from being just born – to schooling- College - job and so on. It starts with our parents paying a bribe for us. Like getting us an admission into our or their desired school or college. Here we have kept our first step in the school of bribe. Be proud that you have passed level one. Many of you know that it is against the rule to give donation but we don’t refrain because our need is of most priority. We don’t think that maybe if we had studied a bit more or worked hard we could have got through without paying donation. We think it’s our parent’s obligation to pay the donation for us. Hasn’t anyone of you felt bad they had to do so just because of us? I felt bad that my parent’s had to pay a donation once. And since then I have made a point that if I get into any where it should be on my merits and not bank balance. True many of us think or don’t know when a situation arises. I would say consult or place a complaint in your respective university. It should help you and also the inconsiderate. I say this is necessary, because there are a lot of students who have studied hard and scored better, but just because of a certain few wealthy undeserving brats these kids don’t get what’s deserved to them. I know if you are the one paying it then you wouldn’t make a move. But all said is make a move, if you feel it’s wrong and be an example to the few who would want to follow you.

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We have completed our studies and moved out of the level one for corruption. Now we have a job and in that process maybe we get caught in some legal problems or so on. Here again we are ready to pay, to save our asses. We have money that’s why we stand up to pay the bribe or the amount asked right. If we wouldn’t have had the sum, we would have painfully slogged through the legal manner right. This happens because we have seen people pay and think “ya if he can why not me do the same.” Yes it gets work done fast, but think again why not cut this crucifix - the people accepting the bribe and probably people would be scared to pay or accept it as well. Don’t you think this would then bring a change? How may of you have viewed the ad campaign to bring a change by ‘Tata Tea’. If not then view it now. I am certain that it shows truth and simple real time changes that can be brought in by saying NO. The sting operations performed by certain news channels had bought a reformation. But as soon as the things calmed down people sought back to their old paths, because we aren’t strong willed. 

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OK that was level two lets enter level three. We got our family and have got settled in life. We have kids and a house and all that we have desired. Now still our debt to the corruption god hasn’t been stopped. Now its turn for us to pay for our young ones this time to get them through in life academically and so on. We say we are educated then why not act as one. Stop it now! At least when we can. We point out to our kids that it wrong and we shouldn’t follow it. Nuts!!! are we worthy to say so because I feel since the time we have known our priority we have been a part of this cross loop of corruption. Knocking door to door only to find the devil opening it. Where is our angel who would get us through straight and perfect? It’s inside us where we haven’t searched yet. Let’s make a move towards reformation and try for bringing in a change for ourselves and our society. We say pollution can destroy our life and so for our future generation. Yes it does and CORRUPTION stands tall in the game. Finish it out and one after the other everything would settle in right.

                                                           “Just Do It For The Change.”